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When it comes to God, we've all been a little stupid...
Introduction:
First of all, let me say that this website is for stupid people like me. If you are not a stupid person, if you have God all figured out, then you may get offended by this website, and are strongly encouraged to leave. If, however, you are like me and have spent a lifetime screwing up your life, and the lives of those around you, there may be something here for you. This is my personal journey, and quest, to understand exactly who God is (for me), who I am, why I am, and what I need to do to be a successful, and important part of this universe. I have tried nearly everything imaginable to "get happy", and no matter how hard I have tried, I always end up back where I started; alone, unhappy and confused, with my life in a shambles.
I think I've always known that there is something (God) out there, but could never understand it, much less worship it. I was raised in the church, and then ran from it as hard and fast as I could, as soon as I was old enough to make that choice. Later in life, I thought I found a concept of God I could buy into. I even ended up joining a church, and became a God-guy for a while. But eventually, the same thing that drove me from the church when I was young, drove me from it again. I felt judged by my peers in the church, and words like Sin and Hell stood like a giant wall between myself and the God I so desperately wanted to understand. God spoke to me one night, and it changed my life forever. When I shared it with my trusted friends in the church, and my family, it became obvious to them all that I had a mental problem. I left the church, never to return.
But I did not leave God, nor Him me. I have spent some time trying to understand Him, and why He spoke to me. I found that all I had to do was ask, and He would reveal Himself to me. The Bible confirms that in Mathew 7:7: "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened." It occurred to me that my whole understanding of God was based on other people's beliefs. From my earliest days, I have been subject to other people's understanding of God. My grandparents, my parents, the church, the preacher... But it did not stop there; where did they get their understanding and interpretations from? The most probable answer is that they learned their belief from their family, church, pastor, and so on.
There was so much about the Bible and the Christian faith that I was exepected to believe just for the sake of believing, without it being necessary to understand it - "just believe it because that what God expects". There was so much that never made sense. Its no wonder I never felt Christian enough... secretly I couldn't believe anything, so I was obviously a doomed sinner. Trying to live your life by a faith you dont really buy into, is stupid! It will never work for you unless you understand, and believe it. It never occurred to me that God gave me a brain so that I could think and reason. It never occurred to me to think about Him... I mean really think about Him, and question my own beliefs. What do I really believe, and why? Is what I believe about God my belief, or a program someone else put in me a long time ago? Is what I believe actually working in my life, or is more like wishful thinking?
That is exactly what this website is about. Its a place for you and I to really think about God, and truly understand Him. I want you to come here, hang out with me, and really challenge your thinking. I am not here to promote any religion, or denomination thereof. I believe that religion (like a car) is the vehicle that gets you to your destination; it is not the destination. Drive whichever model makes you most comfortable. Obviously, the contents of this website will be about what I believe, and the book that influences my beleif, but it is my great hope that it will help you determine what you believe. Your entire life is governed by what you believe. If you are not happy with it, maybe you need to change what you believe. If you don't know where you are going, you will never get there. We have all been stupid where God is concerned, at some time or another. The good news is... stupid is treatable! - Brother Stupid
Use the links on the left to navigate this site. They are in order with my topic of conversation. You can contact me via email for now, in the Contact Us section. Feel free to make comments, suggestions, or ask questions. I will either answer the on this site, or by email (unless your purpose is to judge... in that case click the "Contact God" button and tell on me.) I will be developing a facebook page, and a twitter account in the near future,so check back. My hope is to start a world-wide conversation about God. God told me that one man/woman can make a difference - this is my shot at it, call me stupid. ;)
First of all, let me say that this website is for stupid people like me. If you are not a stupid person, if you have God all figured out, then you may get offended by this website, and are strongly encouraged to leave. If, however, you are like me and have spent a lifetime screwing up your life, and the lives of those around you, there may be something here for you. This is my personal journey, and quest, to understand exactly who God is (for me), who I am, why I am, and what I need to do to be a successful, and important part of this universe. I have tried nearly everything imaginable to "get happy", and no matter how hard I have tried, I always end up back where I started; alone, unhappy and confused, with my life in a shambles.
I think I've always known that there is something (God) out there, but could never understand it, much less worship it. I was raised in the church, and then ran from it as hard and fast as I could, as soon as I was old enough to make that choice. Later in life, I thought I found a concept of God I could buy into. I even ended up joining a church, and became a God-guy for a while. But eventually, the same thing that drove me from the church when I was young, drove me from it again. I felt judged by my peers in the church, and words like Sin and Hell stood like a giant wall between myself and the God I so desperately wanted to understand. God spoke to me one night, and it changed my life forever. When I shared it with my trusted friends in the church, and my family, it became obvious to them all that I had a mental problem. I left the church, never to return.
But I did not leave God, nor Him me. I have spent some time trying to understand Him, and why He spoke to me. I found that all I had to do was ask, and He would reveal Himself to me. The Bible confirms that in Mathew 7:7: "Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it will be opened." It occurred to me that my whole understanding of God was based on other people's beliefs. From my earliest days, I have been subject to other people's understanding of God. My grandparents, my parents, the church, the preacher... But it did not stop there; where did they get their understanding and interpretations from? The most probable answer is that they learned their belief from their family, church, pastor, and so on.
There was so much about the Bible and the Christian faith that I was exepected to believe just for the sake of believing, without it being necessary to understand it - "just believe it because that what God expects". There was so much that never made sense. Its no wonder I never felt Christian enough... secretly I couldn't believe anything, so I was obviously a doomed sinner. Trying to live your life by a faith you dont really buy into, is stupid! It will never work for you unless you understand, and believe it. It never occurred to me that God gave me a brain so that I could think and reason. It never occurred to me to think about Him... I mean really think about Him, and question my own beliefs. What do I really believe, and why? Is what I believe about God my belief, or a program someone else put in me a long time ago? Is what I believe actually working in my life, or is more like wishful thinking?
That is exactly what this website is about. Its a place for you and I to really think about God, and truly understand Him. I want you to come here, hang out with me, and really challenge your thinking. I am not here to promote any religion, or denomination thereof. I believe that religion (like a car) is the vehicle that gets you to your destination; it is not the destination. Drive whichever model makes you most comfortable. Obviously, the contents of this website will be about what I believe, and the book that influences my beleif, but it is my great hope that it will help you determine what you believe. Your entire life is governed by what you believe. If you are not happy with it, maybe you need to change what you believe. If you don't know where you are going, you will never get there. We have all been stupid where God is concerned, at some time or another. The good news is... stupid is treatable! - Brother Stupid
Use the links on the left to navigate this site. They are in order with my topic of conversation. You can contact me via email for now, in the Contact Us section. Feel free to make comments, suggestions, or ask questions. I will either answer the on this site, or by email (unless your purpose is to judge... in that case click the "Contact God" button and tell on me.) I will be developing a facebook page, and a twitter account in the near future,so check back. My hope is to start a world-wide conversation about God. God told me that one man/woman can make a difference - this is my shot at it, call me stupid. ;)